He didn\'t win

I don\'t feel like myself anymore,
i feel every step ahead there\'s a chance i may fall
i dont know if you know but this just isn\'t me
i wonder is it too late, can i still make you see?

i swore to myself i wouldn\'t change not for you or anyone else,
but i just know the changes i\'ve made haven\'t been for myself,
my friends they see the difference, they ask me am i ok,
i just look at them like i was told and robotically say, \"i\'m just feeling a little tired today.\"

the smile on my lips is so fake its like plastic to taste,
i\'m always on my way home, have to travel with haste
you taught me not to open up, friends are not something i\'m aloud to posess,
i chose you, i took your advice, i got myself into this mee

if i\'m home late from school, the blows fall heavy and cold,
what happened to the man who i longed to hold?
everything has changed i\'m turning into you
i don\'t want to belive it but i know it\'s true

my mood swings are swift happy to sad,
calm to mad
i\'m scared now i left my friends i don\'t know when i\'ll go off next time
and i just wish i could disown myself, i don\'t want this stone heart to be mine

i\'ve chaned so much over 6months and now there\'s no going back
i gave you my body and my heart, you forced me to do crack
now i look into the mirror, that girl she\'s just not me,
i don\'t like her i cant stand who i see

i won\'t keep my mouth shut anymore
i\'ve had my share of closing doors
and i am so afraid
i don\'t know what you\'ll say

this beating was my last
i lost my heart beat and away i was cast
then pain i felt it was so dull and dim
i may be gone but he dosen\'t have me so he didn\'t win