I'm sitting here reminiscing and contemplating on the first day that I met [HER]. I can still remember having that feeling when [HER] and I first started talking. I never told [HER] that time that I had a huge crush on [HER] because I was afraid of letting my feelings out since [SHE] was with someone at that time and I was with someone at that time as well. I never told [HER] this but [SHE] was always on my mind. I didn't really know [HER] enough at the time but something about [HER] just got to me. I loved the way she thinks and she was just the sweetest woman that I've ever met. Having [HER] in my life just seemed so damn perfect. I never knew that I could ever have the chance to meet such an incredible woman but I did and everything just seemed so right. But I started feeling so afraid and skeptical toward my self because I felt as if I wasn't good enough to give [HER] the love unconditionally. I was so focused on doing my best to have confidence on my self to give [HER] my love that I didn't realize that I was pushing [HER] away. My world just didn't seem so right when [SHE] walked out of my life. Everything just came crashing down and I felt like my heart was torn out from my chest and was left on the floor to bleed to death. I never felt so weak and so heartbroken. Seeing [HER] with another woman just seems so painful. I tried to push away the pain that I'm feeling but it's just so hard to know that [SHE]'s probably have moved on and I may never have that chance to let [HER] know how much she truly means to me. I guess this is the consequences I must face for holding back on me and [HER]. Every day and every night, I'd pray to the Lord above to give me another chance to fix everything. To give me another chance to live my life with [HER] by my side. To have that glimpse of happiness with [HER] and then I could leave this earth knowing that I had that one last chance to be with [HER]. To cherish that special day as I see [HER] beautiful face. If only I could have that one last chance, my life would be so much better knowing that I've given up my whole being just for [HER].
