A Piece of Nothing

Kids used to laugh and taunt my looks,
I was always in dirty old hand-me-down dresses,
With an armful of torn hand-me-down books,
Always twirling my unwashed tresses,
At school I was bullied and hurt,
Always an outcast, and never included,
The kids would trip me so I would fall in the dirt,
They hated me and me they excluded,
You are gross, ugly, and totally unclean!
Take a bath, a shower, or something!
Oh you are crying, do not make a scene!
You are worthless, a piece of nothing!
So they would shout at me, this dirty used girl,
Not knowing about what happened everyday,
Not knowing about my thoughts that would whirl,
Not thinking about the impact of what they would say,
My eyes were so blurry, I would keep them shut,
I would think why are kids so mean to me?
I would stand, gather my things, and cover my cuts,
Why do things like this give them such glee?
I walk home thinking of my day,
I have no where to go, except my house,
I think about the bullies and stuff I could say,
My skirt is all dirty and so is my blouse,
I walk inside the house as quiet as I can,
My family is no better than the kids you see,
Everyday I cook and clean and get hurt by The Man,
Some nights I scream as he gets on top of me,
He will cover my mouth and slap my face,
Not a word to anyone, not to your mother!
I wish that someone could take my place,
Mom cannot help, she is too busy with another,
The Man says no one wants a girl like me,
That I am better off with him but I know better,
Somewhere out there is a loving family,
Who wants me as their daughter,
They will feed me, clothe me, and let me shower,
The would say I love you do not ever forget,
And with these hopes I would build a tower,
My tower to God, I will not give up just yet,
I used to say that but I have lost all hope,
I am tired of pain and all my nightmares,
I am sorry to mother but I just cannot cope,
I will find an angel, maybe he will care,
So with The Mans gun, I pull the trigger,
No more thoughts, and no more pain,
No more worries mom, everything is clearer,
I have finally ended my endless rain.

well what do you think? Sometimes things DO get tough.