You'll Never Know

I sit here and ponder
My thoughts so dry
Like a social blunder
I can only cry

Here I'm alone
Out under the stars
Sitting on a stone
Wondering where you are

There are words I want to say
Thoughts you need to hear
But at the end of the day
I just run away from fear

I want you as a friend
I want you as a lover
But will you hold my hand?
Or will you just say never?

I glance at the moon
And stare out at sea
One day you'll be back
But it won't be for me

I heave a sigh and pray
My dreams seem so grey
Hopes are just so faded
And I feel so very jaded

I guess just maybe so
You'll never ever know
My words just so true
When I say I love you