Just Alike

My tears still fall for you,
Even after all you've put me through.
I wish you weren't hurting so bad,
I wish I hadn't made you so mad
When you tell me that you're sorry, I believe it.
I guess I'm just to gullible to see the truth in it.
You've protected me all my life,
You've protected me from sorrow, and even the knife.
I just want you back,
I'm tired of going through this time attack!
I wish I still had my Daddy to raise me now,
You've made you're mistakes, and to protect me from them, only you know how.
I love you Dad, more than you will ever know,
And through all this, I don't want you to have to go,
But you're choosing your own path,
Mistake after mistake, you do the math.
You're going down a road, and I'm following you
Even Mamaw's slowly starting to walk behind us too.
Why can't you just do the right thing?
You were great at it before, what's happening?
You've been my role model since I was a kid,
Every thing you had done, I did.
I miss it being that way,
I miss you showing me how to never stray.
You've taught me how to follow my dreams, wherever they will take me,
Now I see that there's a difference between dreams and reality.
I used to believe in you,
I wish that that was still possible to do,
But you drained away all the hope that I had.
Now I have to watch you drink your life away, forever sad.
You need some help to get you through.
You need some guidance to show you the better path God drew.
You can't go through this all alone,
Your weakness has finally shown.
No one's strong every day,
There's got to be something to keep them that way.
You've lost everything that you've worked so hard for,
But why go to alcohol, drinking, and liquor?
The same reason I turned to cutting before,
It's the key that opens that door.
It sets you free, and lets you run.
It's a release, but it doesn't keep you from coming undone.
You still have to face your problems in your head,
They stick with you through the feelings they give that'll never be dead.
You opened my eyes to this yourself, not to long ago
Follow your own advice, and down the right path, you will go.
I need you to be better than you are right now,
I need some guidance only you can give me now.
I'm just exactly like you.
I'm your daughter and it really shows through.
A lot of the time, it shows too much,
But that part of me that's you will never lose touch.
One of us has to keep hope that we'll change somehow,
I don't know which one, when, or how.
One of us will have to take that stand,
And before it's too late, jump out of this sinking sand.
You or me, you choose now.
If it must be me, I'll try to save you, the best I know how.
I love you Daddy, and maybe, one day we'll be out of this terrible tangle,
Love, always and forever, Your Little Angel.

To: Daddy
Love: Nikki