Oh-So Dangerous

And I hate myself for smiling each time I see your name on my phone, or for calling you when I feel lonely.
And I hate you, simply because I'm not supposed to love you like this. Your a virus in my head, bad for me and deadly... but I have no cure.
I love you, and I can't change that, no matter how I try.

I've tried to move on and fell so hard that I have scars on my palms. I've tried to find someone else, but in my mind I'm cheating on you.
I rethink how we never agreed to see each other, but somehow my heart fails to accept that... though it knows you'll kill me eventually.

I've cried each time I see you with another, and I've hated myself for being so jealous.
I've even tried to see how good she is for you; then sigh, knowing your just playing them.

But I don't care.
I've known your longer than anyone else, and you'll always be my best friend. I just wish you'd grow up and see me once more.
Simply because I miss it... you so. Fact, your the first I dare never lie to... the first love I dare still think, smile, or wish for again, again, and again...

God and I only know your dangerous, but I'm too addicted to quit...
and I know this, which makes everything oh-so more dangerous.

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© KayD [2006]