Being Twelve

Dedicated to *~W/i`L?e F.i,R"e~*

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She was twelve today and couldn't care less
since that was the least of all her worries still
She still fought with her inner self constantly
wondering why she never considered the pill

Maybe God wanted this to happen to her
this was happening for a reason so great
but she still remembers how it happened
and still she regrets that she did not wait.

But she had seen movies of love before
and was foolish to believe it was true
and now she is pregnant with a baby
and she has no idea what she is to do

What happens when her parents find out
will daddy still look at her the same
or will mommy be forced to calm him
so that he doesn't call her a vile name

But her tummy is getting quite big
and she can feel the baby kick
lately in the mornings shes been puking
her whole being is feeling quite sick

If only she could have stopped him someway
he was seventeen and persuaded her to do it
she remembers how she cried and screamed
and the horror that followed when it did not fit

The tears were the only answer
and in her mind there was nothing to sort
her family was poor with no money
so there was still no option of her to abort

She knows that she really does not want it
and that she cannot face her parents to tell
they would say they didn't have a daughter
and that she could find a way straight to hell

So that is why she is raising her knife high
and singing in a low voice a sweet lullably
hoping that death doesn't cause her more pain
since it's herself she is going to slain

She brings the knife down hard across her wrists
do not burden yourself with the question of what it meant
blood seeps from the mouth of mother and baby
now I wonder if in heaven she is still considered pregnant