Hardest thing for me to do

Seeing u today... the day b4 u leave. i was glad to see u again
even with the recent occurrences.

but knowing it may be a while before we talk again and maybe longer before i see u again...makes my heart grow sad.

i know u said you'd come back for us... but there is a doubt in the back of my mind that disagrees.

plagued by anxiousness, worry and sadness. the reassurance of that hug...the one that makes all the bad things fade away...I'll miss that and I'll just have to hold to a memory until next your here if ever that happens.

goodbye isn't easy...at the best of times even the shortest period between our goodbyes and hellos has caused me to miss u...and with this indefinite goodbye before another hello i don't know how to handle it.

knowing that this afternoon was the last i will see u for who knows how long makes me want to cry...because my heart is in your hands and if u don't come back i will be broken...forever more

so this...this goodbye is harder than any other I've made...because the next hello is unknown to me...and the distance between us is still going to be unknown.

but for u i would wait a lifetime... thats how special u are and how important u are. life is nothing without u in it....know that this is the hardest goodbye ever for me... for u will be in my mind day in and day out...anxiety will over run my body because i will know nothing of how u are.

this goodbye doesn't change my love for u...nor does it mean that love will die...it just means that i will be missing u more every day.