A long, clear tube,
attached to a plastic bag.
As it is inserted,
I start to choke and gag.
To make it slide in easier,
it's lathered in a thick gel coat.
It goes up into my nose,
and down the back of my throat.
It reaches the inside of my stomach
where it's forced to stay.
I have to have this tube,
because enough I do not weigh.
The nurse opens a can of formula,
and dumps the Ultra-Cal in.
700 calories three times a day,
I'm no longer going to be thin.
It travels through the tube,
and is released into my body.
I cringe in total disgust,
get this thing out of me!
It's like I'm handcuffed,
to the feeding tube pole.
I have to remain a prisoner,
until I reach the Dr.'s weight goal.
I'm going to get too fat,
that's without a doubt.
So I'll just turn off the feeding tube,
or pull the damn thing out!
Unfortunately, I had the pleasure of experiencing this-several times! Not exactly a fun time! If you struggle with an ED, do whatever you can to avoid this, even if you have to eat. Real food is better than tube-feed!
