Flawed Perception

When I'm anxious or depressed,
When I'm upset or really stressed,
You help me to feel my very best.

When I feel guilty, when I'm mad,
When I'm all alone, when I'm sad,
You cheer me up & make me glad.

When I'm hurting, or in such pain,
When I feel hopeless or ashamed,
You keep me from going insane.

When I'm weak, or am vulnerable,
When there's torture in my soul,
You give me some kind of control.

When I can't stand my reflection,
When I'm in the wrong direction,
You steer me closer to perfection.

When I'm frustrated & only ever cry,
When I want to give up & just die,
You comfort me, but it's all a lie.

But I need you, need you entirely,
You're dangerous, but I can't see,
Someday you'll be the death of me.

~About my eating disorder~ Been Ana (anorexic) for a very long time.