MY HATE

I hated that you came into my life and made me happy.
It's because you just ended up hurting me.
I hated when you did not choose to stay.
You didn't tell me, I felt betrayed.

I hated that you had to be away.
You broke your promise that you'll stay.
I hated the very day that I cried;
Leaving me without a "goodbye."

I hated that we had to let each other go.
My heart was broken deep down below.
I hated that you tried communicating with me;
Still calling me then was so silly!

I hated that we can't set each other free.
You were away but as if there was "you and me"
I hated that after a year you came back.
I was almost over you then, I lost track.

I hated that you acted as if nothing happened;
As if nobody got hurt and had her heart broken.
I hated when you tried to win me back,
Only to find out it was a lie, I felt mocked!

I hated that you played with my feelings.
You were selfish and deceiving.
I hated that you showed me you love me still,
Because I don't know what you really feel.

I hated that you were with someone;
Then you would show me I'm still the one.
I hated that you always lie.
I was broken and all I did was cry.

I hated that we did not talk about it.
Things were unclear and do not fit.
I hated that I wasn't able to understand you.
What you showed me was somehow untrue.

I hated that one time you showed you love me,
A minute later, as if you don't know me.
I hated that it makes me confused,
And to you I was still glued.

I hated that I still cared for you;
Though all you did was make me blue.
I hated that I was hooked with your lies;
Only to realize I was just a DOORMAT in your eyes.

I hated when I recall what happened;
A story that never had an end.
I hated that we just fell apart,
Without any closure...just like that!

I still remember you and I hate it!
I still wonder were you true or was a cheat!
Most of all I hated myself because I allowed you to hurt me!
It's hard to move on and I simply HATE ME!