The real me

I hate looking at myself in the mirror
i hate knowing i have fear
i hate seeing what isn't their
i hate feeling that i am scared
i hate believing what isn't true
i hate crying my self to sleep
forgive me for i have no dreams
i feel left out and all alone
with no one to call my own
please help me for i feel dead inside
my friends see what i let them see
if only they could see the true side of me
and as i die inside with pain
please don't think that I'm insane
cause believe it or Not
i have a heart
and its being slowly torn apart