Crushed Leaves

I look in the mirror,
I admit I'm not pleased-
I'm not at all satisfied,
With the person staring back at me.
I don't know why,
But there's something wrong.
I'm not fine,
I just drown myself in sad songs.
People make me laugh and smile,
And yes, I live for the sparkle in your eyes.
But there's something missing-
I'm just not happy.
It's hard to accept myself,
I now understand why you don't love me,
I just wish that you didn't make me melt.
I know now why you don't like me,
It's obvious,
And hard to believe it's something I couldn't yesterday see.
It's obvious that I'm not perfect, I'm not the best-
It's obvious there are so many better than me.
No wonder you didn't love me,
No wonder you don't believe.
Who would love this mess-
I'm know I'm at least a little happy, though-
I know for a fact I'll never allow you to make me depressed.
No, depression isn't my problem,
Not at all.
My main problem is you-
You tripped me and made me fall
And now I'm drowning in this love pool.
You've crippled my heart,
Just crushed it to the ground.
Like a fallen autumn leave,
You crumpled it with not even a sound.
You didn't even really do anything-
But that's the problem, see,
That's the thing,
You did absolutely nothing.
But then again, neither did I,
So maybe it's really just my fault
That I'm such a mess inside.