Who Knows Me?

So many friends
Won't leave me alone
I want it to end
I just need my cell phone

They all think I'm perfect
They all think I'm gorgeous
I wanna disconnect
And get away from all the fuss

I'm in a room full of people
No one knows who I really am
My heart starts to ripple
Cuz no one gives a damn

Girls like because of my rep
Guys like me because I'm pretty
I'm not a prep
I'm not a sex kitty

No one knows what I'm about
Or how I really feel
I just want out
Cuz this world's pain is too real

I'm just a toy
Just a Barbie doll
There's no joy
As I continue to fall

This world is dark and cold
I'm all by myself
Life gets dreary and old
And I don't care for my health

I'm nothing here
Life's just a lie
I'm just fear
Fear that cries

Fear that longs for love
She fears...
She's lost herself from the worlds of above
Her eyes just fill with tears

I'm just getting murdered by time
I can hear a deafening silence
Loudly silent like a mime
Lost without any sense

Those people think they know me
But they just know my outside
They don't know that I hate me
Or how I feel inside

They just know I'm pretty on the outside
And how I seem perfect
But not of my hate inside
And how I long to disconnect

To not wake in the light of day
To not cry in the rain
To actually have a say
And never again feel pain

It's not Worth living a life
Being liked for your complexion
Do yourself away with a scythe
Get rid of all the composure

Life is just too long
I just can't stop crying
It feels so wrong
As I'm slowly dying...