Final sentence

So I'll lie awake
with tear filled eyes
and my heart on my sleeve
why would you even ask me
if I'm okay
do people usually f ucking cry
when there okay?
don't even talk to me
cause i know exactly
what you'll f ucking say
every word that comes from your mouth
is the same as what anyone else would say
you have no idea what I've been through
you don't know how much it f ucking sucks
to be used by the one person
that you love more than anything
so don't even try to convince me
that I'll be okay
i can get through this on my own
i don't need to spill my heart out
to a f ucking stranger
who is getting payed to tell me
the same thing anyone else would say
i can do this on my own
even if it means
pulling the trigger
I'll be in a better place
if i do it anyway
don't try to make me happy
your just making it worse
you can lock me up
what ever the f uck you want
just let me tell you one thing
i have a knife in my back pocket
and I'm not afraid to use it...