My sadness

I'm not meant to be with anyone... just me,
myself,
and the darkness...
together forever...
no one else...
What should i do What should i do... the feeling of death
flows through my skin
I'm sorry I'm sorry... I'm sorry...
Should i slide the blade up and down...
Should i cry and let my soul suffer...
no no... I need someone...
someone to hurt to neglect...
To destroy with the pain
You all caused me...
I shall now forever and ever
thrive in the abyss of darkness.
where i am alone and secure
where no one can hurt me...
where no one can see me...
I wanna die i wanna die
to betray all I've been taught
to feel nothing any longer.
Revenge and suicide on my mind...
I need to cause pain... for all...
for me... for me...