If i had 1 wish,
it would be for all my dreams to come true,
but if only i had realised earlier,
they already are,
i know my dad died and left me,
and i know my mum and step-dad are heading the same way,
but I've got the greatest boyfriend and friends to help me through,
if ever i needed them,
they'd be right their,
by my side,
ready for me to cry on their shoulder,
but why do i feel so bad,
i don't want to cry on them,
my mind tells me to keep it to myself,
it tells me i should keep quiet rather than making them upset too,
i don't want to upset them,
i care too much,
so i just keep quiet,
and show my upset in different ways,
the only way people see my upset now,
is through the scars on my wrists,
but it only makes it worse,
they hate the thought of me hurting myself,
and in 1 case,
tried it herself,
and then i felt really guilty,
she said what was the meaning of life,
if her friends felt like dieing,
then so did she,
so now i keep her from the truth.
I HAVE ALWAYS WONDERED TO MYSELF WHAT THE MEANING OF LIFE IS.
ALSO, IF I FEEL LIKE DIEING, IS MY LIFE REALLY WORTH LIVING.
THIS IS TRUE SO PLEASE HELP ME.
