Love Letter #15

Love Letter #15

Love is always complicated hun. It never stays the same. It always flip flops around. But your real feelings never change. You always love the person you are with. I will tell you the truth, sometimes I double question myself and I think I don't really love you. I feel these things when I am all alone, when I need the reassurance most, and you can't be there to comfort me. But as soon as I hear your voice my heart melts and my mind goes wild with thoughts of us. Sometimes I want to be with you so much, that the pan is unbearable. I try to forget you, I try so hard but no matter how hard I try I can't forget. Even when we were separated and I made myself find another person to date, I couldn't forget. I thought of you all the time. I still think of you all the time. I can�t handle being here without you. Every hour that we don't talk a piece of my mind and heart tares away from me. Your voice brings it all back, your words comfort me and your love pieces me back together. Every day you make me stronger than I was the day before. A few days ago, I went out and four good looking guys walked by me. I could have looked at them, but I will tell you honestly, I didnteven glance in their direction. My sister is the one who told me they were good looking, I knew I was walking by, but why would I bother flirting or whistling like I used to? When now I have the love of my life. I now have the one I have dreamed of marrying. Life hasntbeen the same since we have been together. My mind has gone through so many changes. I have become a new person. A stronger more secure person. Before we met I wasn't ready to love, but it was the only thing I desired. Now I am ready to love, to give myself, my heart and soul. I am ready to be open with others, such as you my love. I am ready to be vulnerable and to take the chance of being hurt. But now, if I get hurt, I know I can pick myself back up. Because you are going to help me, I know you wont hurt me. I always tell you that I love you more than I can write on paper. Do you know this is true? Do you know how I feel mi amor? Oh Ivan, I am free, I am free to love you forever. I love you teddy bear. I love you.

Love your lil one