New Year Without You

New Years Day without you
Another empty experience I had to go through
I sat at home depressed and all alone
Just staring at my quiet phone
Hoping for a phone call from you
Or even just a message from you
For I could no longer stand being away from you
And I once again started remembering all the memories with you
That just left me more miserably in need for you
I longed to see your gorgeous eyes, your tasty lips
I longed to feel your hands grabbing my hips
I longed to see you once again right in front of me
I longed to once again feel like we are made to be
Yet all I got was a shattered disappointed heart, and more tears to cry
Tears that have become a regular companion of mine, since the day you started to lie
There was no one to hear me
No one to comfort me
So I sat all alone under the stairs
And cried my heart out, no one even pretended to care
My eyes turned into a dark shade of red, looked like pure blood
Yet the actual blood was on the floor right next to me, the bright dazzling flood
The flood that purred out of the deep cut on my arm
When I crazily scratched myself trying to forget your irresistible charm
For your image is still stuck in my mind, stuck in my heart
Your love and memories are filling up more than half my heart
I can no longer stand you not being right by my side
For an unconditional love like yours is not easy to find
I can no longer stand all this torture anymore
Everyday my heart dies more and more
I went through New Years Day without you
Please dont leave me alone on Valentines Day too