Letting go

You say life is a ticking time bomb
Gonna blow any day.
All your memories,
All that you've lived for fades away.

So be it that my trigger has been pulled,
Oh how so young,
Can't take all that is me,
Let me blow up and let me be free.

I'm not a freak,
I'm not a depressed wall flower,
I'm just your girl next door,
Waiting for more.

Give me not what I want or need,
But give me all that I hate that makes me grieve.
I'll say its your fault,
How you've damaged me so.

When really its me who just doesn't want to be.
I don't want to be a parasite on this planet anymore.

I just knew this beautiful life wasn't for me.