Why I Can't Let Go

All the years of solitude
Begins to take its toll
Loosing all reallity
Blackening my soul.

I close my eyes and dream
That I wont be alone
The way I know that things aren't real
Hurts like a broken bone.

I fall apon my knees
I scream but cannot cry
The hate that I feel for myself
I swear is not a lie.

I look into the mirror
and cringe at what I see
Trapped inside the skin I hate
Destroyed at what I have to be.