You Just Don't Know (Lil Girl's Life) Part 5

I’m sitting up here watching you
Slowly begin to die
You blame yourself for my death
And I don’t understand why

You were the only one there
When I needed someone most
I’ll always love you for that
I’ll always keep you close

But I can't stop you from yourself
There is nothing I can do
Heaven is a beautiful place
And it’s not quite ready for you

That night that I called
And Mommy began to yell
I could hear you screaming for me
As your heart slowly fell

I knew I was letting you down
By never telling someone
But please think about this
Your life hasn’t yet begun

Even though you were a little late
You know I’m happy here
Jesus is my Daddy now
He eases all my tears

Yes, I cry to him everyday
I’m so worried about you
But he tells me he can’t stop this
There’s nothing he can do

Please try to understand
That this isn’t your blame
You are my very best friend
And I’ll still love you the same

Why are you hurting yourself?
Please just stop
Ill be ok up here friend
I’ve finally reached the top

I flew to that special place
That I’ve always wanted to go
God finally answered my prayer
This you have to know

Tears are streaming down your face
I think your going to do it
End your "pathetic" life
I pray you won’t come through

I think I’M too late this time
I think you just took your life
Your stare is blank and quiet
But I meet you in the light

I hear a distance closer
You are there screaming my name
But I will not speak a word
For it wouldn’t be the same

I’m pushing you further away
But you don’t want to go back
I tell you it’s not your fault
I love you, that’s a fact

“Listen to me closely
I whisper in your ear
Live your life to the fullest
Forget all your fears”

“Live your life for me
Please will you do what I ask?
Don’t end your life too
You’re doing this too fast”

“Be happy and go far
And I’ll keep watching you
Show me what life is to be
Like I never got to”

“Good-bye Dear one
Don’t do this again
I love you always
And I’ll be waiting in the end”

You slowly turn your head
To see the other way
Down the tunnel towards life
I see you walk away

Now I look down upon you
You smile with no tears
Living your life to the fullest
My words still in your ears