This Night

I haven't been able to sleep
I've just sat here to dread
I'm here to weep
As I lie silently in bed

I've been thinking so much
I wonder what's going on
Yearning for your touch
Wondering if you're gone

Thinking of all the possibilities
Hoping things will go well
But you didn't see
The time I fell

This night will be tough
Nighttime brings such sorrow
I need to be tough
So I'll be able to stand up and face tomorrow

I sit here and sigh
I hope something can take me away
I refuse to cry
I want to sleep and wake up to another day

This darkness just brings back memories
Of us being together
Laughing and talking happily
Hoping we'd last forever

It's unbelievable how slow
This night is going by
No place to go
No tears to cry

There's so much pain
There's no way
How could I explain?
There's too much to say

i had fallen down
I had just layed there
Ignoring all sound
This pain was more than I could ever bear

This night, I won't be hearing your breath
The pattern that puts me to sleep
Without it, I can feel death
That is making me weep

I'm breaking down
Just closing my eyes
Just hearing the sound
Of my own hollow cries

I hear my paper and pen
All my emotions pouring out
Thinking of back then
And completely in doubt...