Pretending

Living my life
in one big lie

pretending every second
to be someone I'm not

i can't hide it
anymore

no matter just
how hard i try

i can't be
this perfect girl

you know the one
you all want me to be

or the one you
all see me as

well there's things
you simply don't know

things about me
you'd rather not hear

for if you do
i will let you down

you wont see me
as perfect anymore

only this girl
you tried so hard

for me not
to be

I'm sorry that
i let you down

in so many
different ways

I'm sorry that
I'm this girl

that even I
tried not to be

we all make
stupid mistakes

and well i did
my fair share

i never intended
for all this to happen

it all came at
me so soon

I'm still young
I know I will make more

but I'll try my
best to be better

not only for you
but also for myself

but promise me
that no matter what

you will help me
through things

no matter how
bad they may be

because the worst
thing you could do

would be leaving
me all alone

for me to deal
with it by myself

I'll always be
sorry for everything

but I will never
stop loving you