Behind this smile,
that seems so fake,
is something much more,
that i know you cant take,
i know what i feel,
i know whats going on,
i just dont know if im that strong,
i try to explain but no words come out,
sitting here about to shout,
not knowing anymore than what i just said,
except for the fact that im wanting to be dead,
wanting to o.d.,
wanting to leave,
wanting to know who it is thats in me,
i dont know who i am,
not anymore,
because everyone used to tell me who i was before,
trying to make decisions is harder than i thought,
especially when its myself that i fought,
