PaIn WoN fOr I aM dEaD

This isn't true by the way cause i don't cut but i know people that do.

i sit on the floor,
staring deep at the knife,
I'm thinking......,
today i can end my life,

i pick it up,
i kiss the knife,
and i start to prepare,
i know tonight I'm going to end my life,

i wrote the note,
i put the knife to my wrist,
i go for the biggest vein,
shi*t i missed,

this is new,
I've never felt the pain before,
i think i messed up,
i know i did for sure,

i take my other hand,
i try the other wrist,
again,
i missed,

now I'm in so much pain,
i can't scream inside,
i hope mom doesn't hear,
because this pain i can't hide,

i put the knife to my neck,
I'm full of fear,
i slit my throat,
and leave one last tear..............

by,denysia Chapman-madden