I am alone.

I've always been alone. No matter how many friends I have, no matter how much people help, they don't understand. No one does....they weren't there as that dark man tormented me. They weren't in my mind as the horrors of the hell destroyed my innocence. Not even god would save me form the brain-washing, the control, the fear. Do not say you understand!!! Your experience may be similar but it is so different. You are not me....you have not seen what I've seen. And so I am alone with this. Not you or anyone else knows this terror. It still haunts me to this day, ready to take my mind again. And you ask me not to despair? I am alone......