To Be Loved

[Short, it was way too long for a quote.]

He gave me the greatest feeling in the world. He gave me the feeling of being loved or so I thought... Until he told me he lied. My world tore down, my life came crashing down. I had been living in a cold hearted lie. In those few seconds, my entire life had changed. Like when a doctor comes in telling you she didn't make it. When two cars collide in a crash. When a mother is torn away from her new-born child. This will be a life-time scar on my heart. I will cherish the two months of happiness, to cover up those few seconds when the truth was given. Nothing seems to make it go away. It feels like I'll never be OK. My smiles can shine but that doesn't mean I'm fine. You can hear my laugh, that doesn't mean it's real. He gave me something I thought was real, to call my own, it was finally my turn! It was my source of happiness, for so long... Just to find out it wasn't so. My self esteem is lower than ever before. It feels as it I'm stuck. I'm stuck in a dark place and I can't move and i can hardly breathe. This place is alive, it's fed by his lies... & baby it just won't die...