Never ennding afterlife

I'm done
this may sound foul
i'm holding up the gun
i'm throwing in the towel
i know it wont get better
i cant wait for this anymore
so i hope you get this letter
i want you to kno it was u that i adored

They finally called my number
that's rite i'm next in line
so remember me in december
on christmas morning at present time

This isn't your fault
you did your best
i'll soon be laid with salt
i'll leave you this note before i'm laid to rest
as my heart slowly stops
when my body gets hard and cold
someone should call the cops
before i start to mold
but i'm giving you my heart
as the flys pick at my brain
now it's back to the start
gotta cetch my train
yes i'm checking out
can i get my bill
please dont start to pout
i'm spilling my brains in a bit
plastering my white walls red
and i'm not leaving a tip

Leave me on my bed
for everyone to see
let them read this letter
so they know i hit my peak
it might be more meaningful if i use a knife
but eitherway i'll still be remebered as the girl who couldn't handle life