I'd never imagined the reason for the smile,
painted perfectly on my face,
could be y o u.
When time ago you were lain in her arms,
like you were the happiest on Earth.
Now it's me you caress each night as I fall
slowly to sleep, lying in a heavenly bliss.
And I feel nothing,
but bitter-sweet resentment
toward her.
The one you loved before me.
For I know it's in her hands,
where your solemn heart lies.
She controls you, mindlessly,
consuming your soul,
like a drop of noxious acid
s l o w l y
eating away at your flesh.
And yet you leak countless tears of penitence,
repeating your mantra, for forgiveness
you beg.
And I lap it up like a kitten with milk,
because my weak hart cannot take,
any more suffering, screaming pain,
all for the sake of a short-lived, loveless, liaison.
But it's different this time,
you repeat over and over,
you appear to me,
so sincere.
Am I just living behind rose-tinted glasses?
Or perhaps it's all just a masquerade,
a last desperate attempt to hide my
pessimistic
dejected
perspectives.
Do you really feel the deep, heated passion,
you lavish upon me so easily?
Can I control my enduring dismay?
Because it's for an adoring romance I long,
so helplessly.
And yet as much as I long to leave you alone,
I find myself uncontrollably dragged back
toward loving you more than life.
It's like you tie
an invisible length of rope around my heart,
and p u l l, like a mime you act,
silently but surely, drawing me in.
Resistance is futile.
I have no defence.
I love you and I just can't fight it,
but do I want to fight it?
You make me feel like no one on Earth can,
it's like I'm riding high,
my heart and soul
floating amongst the clouds.
I'm in love and I just can't help it.
I can't leave you, I just can't,
my heart is holding on,
gripping for dear life,
and I just can't sever those tempestuous ties,
so I'll carry on,
I'll s t a y.
Just so I can see you live life, happy, once again,
But also to hide my feelings of uncertainty,
nobody will know of my insecurities
if I just continue
like nothing's wrong.
Life, that's how it is from now on,
I'm living a lacklustre lie.
