A bottle of vodka and The World At its Darkest Moment.

Pin drop silence.
I sit on the roof alone.
i stare at the stars,
thinking about how I've grown.

A bottle of vodka it helps i admit,
Scared to love, maybe just a little bit,
I bid my selfishness goodbye,
The solitude i have fought,
easily seen in my glassy eyes,
My heart was thrown out at sea, then twas caught.
Finally a guy had decided to fall in love with ME.
Nothing was better then just to be held.
Warmth was all i had felt.
Till one day he decided to gut my heart and put it back out as bait,
She wasn't good enough, the girl that was me once again left there to wait.

Obsoleted as i was,
i couldn't seem to find one just worthy cause.

I look out at the world, with the burning sensation down my throat.
Thoughts of inspiration trying to keep my life a float.

Came to the conclusion that life was nothing.
That life had cheated me.
Hadn't let my soul, let it be free.

We all die in the end..
People throughout generations shall forget us.
What becomes of us then? Nothing but a rose upon the grave.

Negative thinking you might say..
Maybe I'm just waiting for that one day,
to be proved that my theory is wrong.
To have a guy just like in one of those stupid love songs.

Tonight here i sit alone but with this sinful drink.
Thoughts racing through my mind,
Wanting you to be here just wanting you to be mine.
I sit here facing the whole world.. once again.. alone tonight.