When you walk in
I think of you and
How it makes you
Feel to see me cry
I hide my tears
And tell you hi
You ask me whatâ??s
The matter
I say why
You tell me no reason
I tell you donâ??t lie
You can tell that did cry
I hate it when I lie
To you but I donâ??t
Like you to know
You walk away
And donâ??t return
For why am I crying?
Because of lifeâ??s
Simple expectations
I donâ??t know why
But I just always
Want to cry I
Love my life most days
As long as everyone
In it stays
Every day goes by
With so much
To worry about
School, you and friends
I am afraid to die
I am afraid of many things
I am afraid that I
May lose you
An d all of the things
That you bring
The way you have made
My life better
I am sorry
I lie and I am
Sorry I cry
But I donâ??t know why
I often feel like I
Could curl up and die
My life is not normal
That no one can control
I can make the best of it
With you by my side
Helping me along the way
And telling me to
Ignore the things that
Get to me most
But when I go to bed
Next to you at night and
Wake up with you each morning
Its like you donâ??t even acknowledge
That I consist in your life
the worry and fright I go
Through each day
And each night
I wonder if you feel
The same thing
Or if itâ??s all in my head
I go to school and
Wonder who you
Are with and I cant
Concentrate the next
Thing I know is the bell
Is ringing and I donâ??t have
Any notes on my paper but
If that is what I have
To go through each
Day to be with you
Then that is what ill do
I love all of the little things
That you do for me
Especially when you put me
First and then yourself
It shows that you care
For me in more ways than one
I am sorry I donâ??t give you
Everything but hon.
I do try and I am sorry
And I promise that I can do better
I can picture us learning how
To surf and finding the
Biggest drug addicts
In California on a surf board
Playboy bunny pink I
Would prefer I just
Want to get away from
All of this shit in the islands
And Vermont I want
To be gone and I actually
Want to live a life
Instead of getting high
All of the time to deal
With things and the
Threatening my life
I love you and I hope soon you
Will be able to move on from
All of that with me but
I can understand if you wont
Be ready to move on
I really canâ??t wait to be gone
If you donâ??t want to move
Right away that is fine
But when I have the money and
Resources to live on
My own I will be gone and
I hope that, that would be
With you and if it
Is not well
I will have to live with that
I mean your whole family
Is here and I wouldnâ??t like
For this to have just been
A high-school fling but
If thatâ??s all it amounts to in the
End it was the best time of my life
If that is what happens
And if I never see you again
Iâ??ll die right next to you
In the end
