Emotions of life

I�m painting now
I can feel the aura of the brush strokes
The soft wood in my hand; masterpieces at my fingertips
Creativity has entered me

Worried about what others think
My Arms wrapped around my waist
I don�t want to be normal
Insecurity has taken over

Never the best I can do
Always feeling pressure to be the best
Fears of not wanting to fail
Inadequateness is nagging at my heart

Hanging on to the edge
Waiting for a hand that will never be there
Having hope in things that aren�t there
Danger has come right to my feet

Wanting to be seen in the public eye
An industry of perfection
The need to be thin
Dreams consume my inner self

Giving people answers to the questions I ask
To help someone covers the pain
A hollow shell is what I am
Hidden stings have smothered me