The fifth time

Have u ever thought about taken your life?
I have more than once....
I think this is the fifth time now,
Each day I think about doing it more and more,
It looks easy,
Plus I think I lived enough of life
To know whats left for me,
More pain, death, and tears,
And no thanks I dont want it,
Ya life is all about taken chances
I know that,
But I dont want to take any more,
Im done, I feel like given up,
Giving up on my family, friends, school,
Even my boyfriend that I love so much....
Life is just way too much; people just want you to be perfect,
Im supposed to be just like my older sister but I got news for you.....
Im not her and never will be,
Im the screw up that dumb one and once they find out what I did,
The s.l.u.t,
At this point dont think it worth living,
They blame me for thing a had no control over,
The grads I get the way I am, im done,
Im sorry but life should not be this hard at age 17,
This just shows me that life is going to get harder as I get older,
This is the fifth time I have thought about it,
And I think I should take it
Into action....

Thank you for reading and I hope to see in a second life.....