CrYiNg

I look in the mirror, and guess what i see.....a girl that has been stepped on,used lied to and abused,I\'m a girl who has changed but not for the better, for the worse, i am not who i used to be. You\'ve broken my heart so many times....so whos fault is it actually....yours or myne? You think i am happy but actually i\'m not really, my smile must be the lie that i\'ve got right now. If we had two minutes together i would tell you how much i love, want and need you. Honestly doing that does not scare me....what you will say to me does babe! After all this time, thoughts of you still fill my mind. Today i prayed my car would crash and i would die so you would hear the news and think of me, as much as i thought of you. THANKS! You made me feel i could be strong and stand tall for the very first time of the 18 yeaars of my life!