Tears that have fallen

I am holding the tears,
i have held back for days.

they dropped when i heard,
that you were engaged.

i want them to fall,
and vanish to darkness.

i know i shouldn't,
but i love you.

it seems so evil,
how i want you.

all to my self,
although you love someone else.

the tears that i hold,
belong to you.

but i can't give them away,
because then you would know.