Unwanted Angel

Dear Diary,
Is this really what I want to do
Run away from everyone, even you
Turn away from the light
And forever be amongst the night
Leave all love behind
It never really was mine
As I sit in anguish
My heart will start to perish
I'll take this God forsaken life
With this silver hell sent knife
I'll cut deep into my skin
And let the memories poor out from within
All of my problems will bleed away
So I don't have to live another damned day

Suddenly I stop it all
I drop the blade and watch it fall
Soon enough it will all be okay
If not, I can do this another day
The phone rings a few moments later
I hear the sweet voice of an anonymous traitor
"Honey are you okay?
I had a bad feeling you were going to do it today"
"Oh, no everythingâ??s fine"
Little did they know, I already made a few red lines
"Are you sure about that dear?"
Something I have been longing to hear.
"No, I'm not fine, I need to talk"
I felt my heart suddenly unlock.
I poured myself out to that god sent angel
After that day, I found myself the slightest bit hopeful
I thank that sweet anonymous voice
They lead me to believe that there is another choice
One can look upon an obstacle
And think they will never win that battle
Or one can see a barrier mountain
With beauty that cannot be mistaken
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
So you just may live a little while longer