You were it... my hero in uniform with a heart full of love just bursting inside of you. But I wasn't ready--
It is the hardest thing to do to walk away from someone as perfect as you. I stray for my own reasons, some involving you but most because of my loss...
Somehow I have misplaced myself, possibly lost it in you but until I find me, well, we cannot be. I love you with a passion I was not aware of before. Something that's so deep and virgin like I'm afraid to touch it. You cry but they are not tears of loss; I have broken your heart something I have promised and sworn I would never do. It hurts me to see you hurting but I hope you know you deserve the world; something I am not able to give you right now. We are different people in a confusing and hurtful world, and I thought I could escape it all by being with you. Our bodies and chemistry and families said yes, but my heart screamed no, knowing that the closer I got the more I would hurt you. My purpose is to help those who need it most, not help myself. I can be selfish no longer, and I apologize from the depths of my heart for all the pain I have caused. You didn't deserve any of this, and for that I am truly sorry. You helped me to realize that I am not yet a full person, not ready for the cold world just yet. I have learning and living yet to do and I cannot be the one holding you back from your life and draging you along with mine. I am in love, that I know, but a love I am not ready for.
I'm sorry... for all I've done, for all the pain and sorrow. I want to give you the whole world, and until I can do that I must say goodbye.
