Lately, i've been feeling more lonely. Why ? i've been alone all my life. My time been spent, trying to forgive someone who never thinks of me. People drift. Intentionally and Unintentionally. i never wanted it to come to this. Look who's left without a soul, only to watch each passing person. To only imagine, what it feels like, to be real. To be a shadow, to a figure i envy so. Does she know ? Her shadow, if given a moment, would say hello. What is it like, to not be tainted or thought of as dirt.- Mother, i never wanted it to happen - Believing in someone, in something. That someone could be lost forever, if no one is willing to believe in her. She can't blame anyone, but herself. If only. If only it was that simple, to go back, and do as she was told. Dirty love. But i would be loved, even though i reek of filth. It is his love. i smell him. Do people cherish that sensation ? Of feeling. Nothing in particular as such, just the sense of feeling, to know you can digest what you take in. A gift. One bestowed to me once upon a dream, but now, those dreams swim in the purged efforts. No longer able to take back her thrown away gift. This curse has taken hold. For she no longer exists. Dead to the world. Lately, i've been feeling more lonely.
