Hey,
This is really well written and great job! I don't know many people who can write this way. But, if you are planning on killing yourslef, PLZ don't do it!!!!! I met a guy on this site, and he said he was gonna do it. I told him that he should, but I was just kidding.
And, I'll never forgive myslef, cuz I think he really did. So, PLZ PLZ DON'T DO IT!!