I promised myself that I wouldn\'t blame me
For not being all that you thought I should be.
But I sit and I sigh, \'cause it\'s sad, but it\'s true
When I realize I hate myself for losing you.
I had promised from this, I would learn how to live.
Learn to be strong. Learn to forgive.
But I writhe and I roll with a pain I can\'t bear
When I look at my bed and you\'re not lying there.
With a knife to my wrist, I don\'t know what to do.
I cannot come to terms with my life without you.
I said to myself, \"You can handle this pain\",
But everyone sees that I\'m just not the same.
Haunted, I still hear you inside my head.
Each morning is harder to get out of bed.
So I run many miles, I forego my dinner
Thinking this might hurt less if I get a lot thinner.
But Pain doesn\'t cure me, the only thing new,
Is smaller shoulders bearing the burden of you.
Sometimes when it\'s quiet, I think of who I was,
Before all this heartache. Before I knew love.
And I wish I could take back the words that I spoke
To that innocent girl. All the pacts that I broke.
I squeeze shut my eyes, but it\'s you that I see.
So in love with your shadow there\'s no longer Me.
