So Here I Am*Aly

So here I am.
Lost and alone again
Running and hiding from the gun
I want the bullet but not the pain
I see the clouds but not the rain
Its enough to drive you completely insane

For once I want the whole picture just not part
I want to live and follow my heart
But my time has passed and my peril is over
I made my choice and its to late to cover
Its not to bad here but I wish i was back there

I could of handled it I could of made it
But I make my choice and i chose this
I was worth so much more and gave it up to this
I wanted something else, I wanted to live in bliss
I remained ignorant as long as I could
But i didn't live life as a should
I watched as things went by that day
Didn't really mind if I faded away and
I did just that

Everyone moved on and I'm happy for that
Their life continued while mine did not
And thats the way to go
Even when life got so overrated
And i just had to go
I do regret what I have done
But I guess life just kinda won