Losing Control Today

I cry inside,
I die inside,
I hit my head,
I don't confide

No one listens
When I shout
They don't know
What it's about

The friends I know
And love to death
Have disappeared
In a single breath

Even here, on a PC
I feel some friends deserted me
Maybe not you
But some of them just wanted to be free

I feel hurt
I feel lost
Today, I was ditched
Without a thought

Am I a freak?
I feel so weak
Losing hope
I continue to mope

I the one I loved
Does not feel the same
Should I feel sad
And take the blame?

I see someone cut
Themselves inside
I can't do a thing
For they won't confide

I am sad; I'm going mad
Crazy 'cause today seems bad
Tonight I will finally sleep
And escape into my twisted dreams

Where I am loved
My friends do smile
And I don't cry
For a long time

And then the nightmare
Hits me hard
I wake up to reality
And it breaks my heart