The knife

As the world
changes everyday
so do i. theres this
secret, this secret is my life.

Many of you may think
of me as a innocent.
sweet girl. But none
of you really no me

I play the role of
the laughing giggle
girl. the one that likes
to party and have fun.

But deep down, deep
inside, I'm looking for
a answer, a answer to escape
this horrible place.

everyday, i come home.
and put the blade to my wrist
because no one knows anything.
everything is different behind closed
doors.

i sit, and i cry and i think.
i think of everything thats
ever happened in my life.
everything thats ever made me
happy in my life flashes before
my eyes. as i run the blade

down my wrist, i say my goodbyes
and thank everyone thats ever really cared, everyone who could tell the truth behind the fake smile, and the lies.

for everyone who, could see the fear in my eyes. and thank those few people for understanding, you saved my life this long. But not enough to keep me alive.