Darkest Fear

[[ At the moment when i was writing this I had to finish to get to my next class. But I dont think I'll rewrite this lke I said I would. I'll think about it. ]]

Darkest Fear

Your name to me is a sin,
I say it every time this razor touches my skin,
I say to myself, I will not love you,
Only if people knew.

Everything you've done to me,
Has never made me free,
I feel the hurt; I feel the pain,
And you can't even show the shame.

I hate you for everything you did,
Trying to keep everything hid,
You didn't want people to know,
What I had to show.

You always lied,
So I couldn't find someone to confide,
You made everyone hate me,
You blinded their eyes so they couldn't see.

You messed up their eyes,
With all your lies,
Winning with everything you had,
I hate you dad.

You told everyone I was on drugs,
And just another one of the street thugs,
You told everyone I drank and stole,
Just wanting to see me fall into a bigger hole.

But dad here comes my darkest fear,
And down my cheek falls a tear,
Dad, everything you said you knew,
Is that what you see in me, becoming true?