How i feel

Words cannot express the pain i feel in my heart right now its funny though cuz its been some days and i still haven\'t frowned this feelings kinda weird but because you were never here i haven\'t been able to drop a tear i realize that your gone no longer in my life but during the breakup i really didn\'t put up a fight now I\'m sitting here absorbing it all knowing you wont be there to pick me up when i fall but I\'m not here to be writing to sad dull and hopeless poem imma copy this and send to all ya otha girlfriends and show them exactly how you are what you do and how you make people feel inside constantly tell them you love them make them feel good inside but behind they back you got another girlfriend on the side yeah i know about you and ya Lil h* heard the story word for word wanted to confront you but guess what naw i wasn\'t scurd i was worried that if i said something it might mess something up guess i shouldve said what was on my mind instead of staying with you and waisting my mutha f*in time but do i cry not i don\'t even f*in mope cuz ya did wrong not me so why should i be guilty see while you were \"playing me\" i was being the best i can be not even worrying about you but every time i turn around somebody see you i seen - here i seen- there i was like d* ya ll see - every f*in where don\'t ya but you know what during them 12 days yeah 12 days we ain\'t talk i went for a really long walk and thought about all the mess you put me through and whether or not i still wanted to be with you it took me some time to get the concept that we weren\'t gonna be together took me some time not to break down and wish for rainy weather but to let you know there ain\'t nothing but sunshine for the rest of my days cuz I\'m sick and tired of getting \"played\" ya did ya best pimping me right, so you can live with the guilt for the rest of your life holla

this is true my x cheated on me and i wrote this like four days later even if its not that good i would appreciate your comments thanks