A gentle tear falls down my cold and pale face,
as i reminicse to past times away from this lonely place,
the wind sweeps through my hair, not a single sound to hear,
as my heart aches in pain from where i wish you were still here.
Those quiet nights with empty meaning bring me close to tears,
as i slowly drift away from you and realise my darkest fears,
i cant let go, not just yet, my heart still bleeds for you,
and the tears that brim are falling now, wondering if you knew.
If you knew about the days where i cant sleep at night,
because i hate what this is doing, and i wish to see the light.
If you knew about all those times ive cried, or even wished to die,
thinking of all those words you said, every i love you which was a lie.
I curl up so tightly, hiding away from the world to see,
to notice these little things i keep a secret, to not show the real me.
I dont want them to see me, to see my heart so tainted and cold,
and sometimes i want to die alone from this love that you had sold.
You walked out that door, and you never looked back at all,
but there i am still waiting, with these crimson tears that gently fall.
I convince myself that one day youll wake up and see the light,
but its just a fairytale, and i think ill give up with this fight.
It doesnt matter who i meet, or where i am in that moment of time,
i still wish you were next to me, and i painfully wish you were still mine.
my friends all think im crazy, and maybe theyre just right,
after all i sit here in the silence, deep into the shadows of the night.
my dreams are filled with my every thought of you and me together,
and my nightmares seem to never fade, and continue on forever.
you will never understand me, or the way this seems to never end,
but i wish my first true love the best, and with my heart this poem i send.
