My Other Side

I'm crying because Im not suffering
Yet I do not know what's wrong
A constant battle with myself
Has gone on too long.

I feel like theres no reason
That I'm close to giving in
To the hate that I feel constantly
I'm drowing in my sin.

I look into the mirror
I've lost what they all see
I can't remember happiness
I don't remember me.

This act that I put on
Is fake. I am not real
I put the smile on all day
To kill what I don't want to feel.

I give into my other side
Who locked away my soul
I'm loosing what I try to hide
I'm loosing all control.