This Isn't Me

Lost in this confusion,
Wishing for a new version,
Of this person I call me,
Of this girl I don't want to be.
Never knowing how I'll feel next,
Unable to read the context,
Of this heart,
Thats been torn apart.
Time and time again,
Always feeling the same old pain.
I've been tattered and I've been torn,
Never has a true smile been worn,
By this person I call me,
This girl I don't want to be.
Hiding myself from the world unknown,
Always finding myself all alone.
Never able to give my heart away,
Constantly losing the words I want to say.
I can never find my voice,
Its not like I have a choice.
Keeping everything inside,
Always having to lie,
About what I feel,
And the things that are real.
For I hate the person I have become,
Its like I'm trapped in my own prison.
For this person I call me,
Isn't truly who I want to be...