Smeared kisses

Am i safer alone
than i would be with you
knowing that any minute wasted
could leave me without you
broken promises
smeared kisses
and undeniable lies
leaves me crying in bed
reciting childhood lullabies
is it better i self harm
or i just sleep until it doesnt hurt
drift into a heartbroken coma
sleeping on ure shirt
press on my eyelids
when the pains to hard to take
anti depressants robotically moving me like a zombie through my day
so step on her fingers
dont think u made her bleed enough
make her cry
if it'll make u feel tough

n ive come to the conclusion
that i am to f**cked up too be the one you love.... xxxxx